I Don’t Blame You

Drift By Wendy Van

When I’m feeling low and unappealing

You’re always there with your natural healing

The scum of the earth with a bruised ego

Forever reminding myself why I don’t matter

And there you are

Hands ready to catch me as I fall in the pit of my own negligence

I never knew what the ground tasted like because you’re always there

Now that you’re elevated

Unreachable

I can barely pick my face up

The taste of cement in the back of my tongue

The cracked teeth to remind me of my new struggle

Which is all I know now

You used to be there

I depended on you for comfort

Too afraid to rely on my own love

Bullied by the toxic traits I live with daily

Abusing the hidden bottles under my sink

Well, they were hidden when you used to check on me

Now they’re half empty

Under my bed

On my shirts

In my nails

Oozing out of my pores

You left the moment you realized you are no savior

I resemble the plague that once invaded your pure mind

I accepted once I realized I could only save myself

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